I am painfully bored. Maybe I need to start drinking coffee again. Lately I’m just bored and tired and depressed and I sleep and eat to much. I used to be a little bit crazy with my ability to not sleep my constant reading and my rather insane compulsion to fill my head with information in hope that I would somehow transend reality. Now I just sleep in and watch a lot of TV. I can’t keep going on like this. I’m 30. My youth is sorta over and the last fleeting excuses for youth are passing me by.

I have to counter act this, it may not be pretty.