A comic book that I’ve had since 1985, when 2010 seem like an eternity away.
2006 was by far the most important year of my life. It was the end of my first year with Just FAITH, my father died, it was my first post-Katrina trip to New Orleans, I produced fund raisers for Amnesty International and The Non Prophet Theatre Company and directed my first music video. It was insane. Not that the last three years have been a permanent smoke break, it’s just no year since has been as intense. 2010 is only four days old and it’s already on par to be ultra-ridiculously insane. 2010 could make 2006 look like 2004.
Advice I’ve gotten a lot of advice lately. Some good, some bad, most of it useless and almost all of it unsolicited. In a very hypocritical fashion, I am a big giver of unsolicited advice. I almost never ask for advice however, especially regarding my personal life. It’s probably arrogance on my part. I just think no one knows what’s best for me more than me. I rarely need anyone’s help, so when I do I have a very hard time admitting it. I even have a hard time taking good advice for the simple reason that it comes from someone else rather than me.
Ego This brings me to the subject of ego. I don’t think I have a big one, but I have one. Especially when it comes to certain things. I think a big part of 2010 will be killing my ego, to a certain extent. I have a very difficult time admitting when I’m wrong. In fact, I HATE being wrong, even when there’s no percentage in being right.
Wisdom I find it very odd when people describe me as wise. Even at 36, I feel too young to be called wise. Also, there’s that old saying, “Good judgment comes from wisdom, wisdom comes from experience and experience comes from bad judgment.” Another way to say this would be that wisdom comes from taking chances, and that’s something I’m very good at avoiding. I’m used to playing it safe, but in my case, playing it safe has meant being less than honest and I have really hurt some people I care about. This needs to change in 2010.